Heart Of The Ocean

I'm drowning, losing my pulse, and sinking,
Fast, trying to start something new but I'm too busy thinking,
About the could've been and would've been,
When I should've been making away for us to begin,

I watch her watch me, with eyes that reflect everything I want to observe,
As if she sits there waiting with thoughts to reserve,
A space in her heart for me but too afraid to make the first step,
Or move, hoping I would explore her mind and reveal what has been kept,

Beneath the surface, she smiles to stall,
Then she giggles enough for me to catch her fall,
Trying to figure out if I care for her or am I just caring,
And if I share for her or do I just enjoy sharing,

My hopeless romantic love affair that she dares pretending,
To relive the experience and change the ending,
So I could speak on its existence instead of prior resistance,
Of falling in love that has become a new instance,

Well example of how second chances come and go, just with who we'll never know,
And maybe this is a second chance to prove that love can help me grow,
In time, but since it isn't on my side I need to let go of this pride,
Take a leap of faith and allow two souls to collide,

But then I begin drowning in the tears of yesterday,
Insecurities of the others take over and form a delay,
Of moving on, so alone I am again,
Closing my eyes, I see her face so I have a temporary win,

Yet for how long can I stall,
Every minute gives another inch to a ladder too tall,
To reach the deck of the Titanic my pride has created,
To allow me to set sail for her love since she'll have me captivated,

By a simple touch or a taste of happiness,
And as I'm drawing out a plan she's waiting to capture this,
With a photographic memory and showing how her beauty shines,
Reflecting the rays of the sun like something divine,

Then I plan a trip to the beach where she sits so pretty,
Waiting for the waves of temptation to reach out to get me,
So I stand at the shore thinking to get more than my feet wet,
Trying to figure out if I should dive in or keep her guessing like we just met,

But I know I have to dive in eventually, but when, I'm not sure,
Hesitant still while she sits so open and pure,
So until I'm sure I can explore the depths of one that's chosen,
I mustn't set sail to discover the heart of her ocean...

Let's Stand In Love

We've been in too many situations where we fell in love,
So let's stand in it and walk towards the light that shines from above,
Can we rekindle the essence of affection?
Make the sun jealous that it has to become our reflection,

Create a ray of spontaneous joy that sparks a flame of desire,
To burn forever in our hearts a factitious fire,
Meaning a man made ember without resistance,
We work together to keep it going, indentured slavery for instance,

So we hire each other and our mission is to reach something real,
That's controlled, untouched, but we can definitely feel,
Have fun with our emotions but keep hope alive,
We have our future planned so our bond will survive,

Have a designated time for love, work, and play,
Plenty of down time so we never see a delay,
When our time together comes close to an end,
We stick a cork in it and just pick back up on it so we forever begin,

To grow feelings, hold onto devotions, without sudden notions,
Participate in a love affair with only fixed emotions,
We change like the seasons but adapt,
So we make a love strong bond, not even hate can break that,

But then again, why would you want to control it?
Why wouldn't you want to heal a wounded heart and console it?
Why wouldn't you want to do things that are subliminal,
To show your love is unconditional, and is mental as well as physical?

Do things without justice, but for the thrill,
Hold each other not to keep warm but for the feel,
Kiss in threes not for the count,
And do things to show your love doesn't have a small amount,

Work a hectic schedule for love and even over time,
Recoil with our bond and prove our love if it starts to unwind,
Take a trip in each others hearts as if it were a park,
Walk slowly to feel the breeze as we embrace and embark,

Upon the journey before a long ride,
Enjoy the high as we rise and the lows when we collide,
Explore the feelings we sometimes hide,
And hope the insecurities don't haunt us on thoughts if we ever lied,

To each other, we just create our colony and an exodus,
Meaning a family and fans trying to get next to us,
Since we won't be trying to map out where our hearts will be but the sight of us still happy,
Because time isn't on our side but we can plan on where our hearts can be,

Or just blame the seasons like its the reason for second guessing or even teasing,
Each others minds when we do away with all our cheesing,
For our serious explorations of love,
Then get back to reality to show them what we're made of,

So forget trying to control it, let's let go and get close with it,
Paint a picture perfect love and hope everyone noticed it,
Make an answer for all those who haven't witnessed a blessing like this from above,
And tell them you're happily falling if they ask to stand in love.

Dream Inception

You rest your head on my chest,
I thank God for allowing me to invest,
Time to watch you dream as you relieve my stress,
Because with you, I escape reality,
Wherever the scenery seen through your eyes is where I'd rather be,
Whether we're in the rain, somewhere in Spain,
Cruising on the ocean or even on a plane,
I just want you to create an inception,
Use the reflection of your beauty to point me in the right direction,
To where my heart has a home,
And where my mind can rest so it no longer has to roam,
I want you to create a memory used to rekindle thee,
Moments of happiness so gloomy days will no longer swindle me,
Into thinking that I had to struggle just to get by,
I feel warmth in your touch and feel at ease when you say hi,
No more living on the edge,
And no more racing for the finish like a hog with a hedge,
I can slow it down a bit, like a deep breathe in between each kiss,
Leave no time to reminisce and not too much time for me to miss,
You, since when we're not together you live in my mind,
Hopefully you can create this dream inception and everything will be just fine!

Suicide Note

It's time to say good and bye together,
I remember my urge to get her,
Success I mean, along with a wife,
But things change and so did my life,

I fell so hard for something that made me delve deeper,
I made it to the surface too late and couldn't keep her,
I couldn't even reach her, she created a teacher,
Now I'm practicing my thoughts but I'm no preacher,

I loss the battle but I won the war,
I explored another heart and enjoyed the tour,
Now I have the ability to speak to someone's soul,
But my feelings I have problems trying to control,

See I was falling for her but I wouldn't let it show,
I told her I loved her but I didn't let her know,
How she changed me and almost made me,
The man I am today after too many years of slavery,

Psychologically and physically,
Now I suffer from the love of success and wait for her to get to me,
Trying not to let the stress show and play it cool,
But pride is the reason I'm not in school,

So I have to pull the trigger, spray blood over an adolescent picture,
Give to the world this last and final scripture,
Create a better me with the remains,
Learn from my heartaches and strains,

Prove that suicide isn't selfish if you're thinking selfless,
Remind the world of sacrifice since the world is a great mess,
Prepare for no one to attend a funeral that wasn't told,
Take my last few moments to get warm before I get cold,

Then I will bow down and pray,
Listen to God's message for the day.
So I give to you the suicide note to the old me,
Now I'm one step closer to letting my soul free.

Waiting(Effortless Time)

The gloss in your eyes tells it all,
Your mind tries to explain to your heart why it shouldn't fall,
Short with words but your picture tells a long story,
You're repeatedly reminded of what was once called glory,

So you stare in hopes that your spell is taken away,
But thoughts of the unknown makes it hard to believe things could be okay,
All I can do is wait,
I have my own cooking skills but enough is on your plate,

I let you digest your stress hoping I can still invest,
But I can't think about me since I need to relieve the inflammation in your chest,
I need to find out how to put your heart where it belongs,
Balance out your rights with his wrongs,

So I stand behind you and I let you fight this war,
And if you fall I'm here to catch you and tend to what's sore,
Heal your wounds, bring out your smile,
Relax my feelings since I know this may take awhile,

Give you some space but I'm only one call away,
Remind you of your beauty so your dignity can stay,
Console you and hold you until your heart has dropped it's last tear,
Take no credit for my actions, but I'll remind you that I'm here,

What I do is effortless like time,
I can't control it but it happens so let's say that I'm,
Doing the inevitable because you deserve it,
Like my job I make the time to cook it and serve it,

Meaning I prepare and cook what's needed to make you happy,
So I can serve you joy just so I can see your laugh, see,
When I see the pain in your frame, I think its a shame,
That beauty captured in something under 5'6 won't wear their name,

Too busy allowing sorrow to keep you down,
When your beauty uplifts others, so you should share the sound,
Of laughter and joy,
So I lay waiting for you like a child for a new toy,

Keeping hope, so I'm I'm only allowing positive energy to display,
And I'll do this effortlessly like time just so your smile can stay,
Since I see that your worth it and I want only for the better,
For you so if you must depend on your mood with the weather,

Let the rain make beautiful music on your window pane,
Cry with the clouds if you have to just stay sane,
But when the sun comes back out to stay there's no debating,
That your smile should be shining and I'll still be waiting.

I Shouldn't Have Let You Kiss Me

I must say this was a great night,
My emotions took flight, letting your smile shine too bright,
I watched the sunset in your eyes like you were the one,
We laughed a lot so it must have been fun,

I carried you on my back, we held hands,
We sat by the water and made plans,
But I should've stopped you then,
But we continued talking and I let resistance begin,

Your lips kept my attention, when ours met and when you talked,
So at ease beside you that I felt like I could glide instead of walk,
Our souls were engulfed, while our hearts were entertained,
But as friends I knew we should remain,

Too into the moment to push you away,
The memories of lonely nights got to me so I asked to stay,
I wanted to just hold you through the night, with no need for sex,
Without a care of what would happen next,

So you grow closer to me and now I can't control the feeling,
Of wanting you to fall for me although I look towards the ceiling,
Meaning I wouldn't watch you fall but I knew you would,
I lay trying to get away since I should,

Well, I shouldn't have let you kiss me,
I should have stopped you and let you diss me,
So you wouldn't have gotten hurt and I wouldn't have waited so long,
Now I'm sitting here ready to perform for you without a song,

Still words from the heart but the ones you don't want to hear,
The ones to create distance, so I hug you while you're still near,
I kiss you on the cheek and you feel the resistance when you turn your face,
To meet my lips so a happier moment I begin to trace,

But putting off the truth this long has me hating myself,
Like I'm back stabbing both of as I place my heart on a shelf,
So while your heart is beating to a love song,
My heart isn't in the equation so I refuse to do you wrong,

Damn, I shouldn't have let you kiss me,
I should've pushed you away and let you diss me,
Now I wish I could be alone and you won't miss me,
Hopefully I will learn from this and I won't be so risky...

To: __(insert your name here)__

In the mix of creating a great memory,
Trying to change the relationship of a friend of me,
Well a friend of mine, waiting for the moment,
That time seems to be valuable and hers she will loan it,
I'm hoping she gives me the time of the day,
With the time of the night here patiently I lay,
Contemplating the seconds, minutes, and hours,
That we plan parties and possibly showers,
But then I come back to reality where I'm falling for you,
So I grab my phone, no text, because I'm calling for you,
Then I grow silent over the phone unless its to console,
In person I just look into your eyes and let my soul take control,
Of my words, since my mind is thinking of your last kiss,
And my heart has memories of all the times I would miss,
You, angelic being definitely from the divine,
I have thoughts to make you mine, still to shy, so I just watch you shine,
I'm growing blind,
Because now I don't see you for your physical appearance,
I see to your soul, feel the touch of your heart, and I ignore any interference,
Between us,
I wrote this for the future hoping that in due time you would read,
The two lines after this, with hopes that you believed,
I'm ready to sign the contract that will promise to keep you near,
And all I ask is that you insert your name right there...

To:___(the woman of my dreams)___
From: A Guy Named Trez

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I'm over due,
For a tear drop or two,
I feel the emotions bubble so I wait for the eruption,

It's all clear now,
A dream I've had,
Has made my vision cloudy and has no room for interruption,

When did this happen?
Where was my warning?
Why is there no one to just give me what I need?

But what do I want?
And was there someone trying?
Of course there was but I was too naive just trying to succeed,

Now I'm all alone,
With a temporary win,
But the memories come back and trap me,

So I had a lead,
But I loss in the end,
Day to day working so have bills pimp and slap me,

So ready to give up,
But I look in my corner,
I have a few but not as many as the corners I stand in,

So I have to step away,
Leave some people be,
Since there's no real point in demanding,

What's supposed to be,
Or what I want,
Or what I think I should get and deserve,

Feeling like a wounded angel,
Failure is my reflection,
So I fade into the background, sit back and observe,

I smile like a champ,
But I feel the pain of a loser,
But I just have to let something go and not grow,

Since a tear won't fall,
I give a drip for the road,
I just bleed my heart in my rhymes to let my feelings show...

Why I See You As Just A Friend

Here comes the moment I've been trying to avoid,
The offer is on the table with the list of times we've enjoyed,
Or a reason for the offer but I wonder why bother,
Then you release what's bottled in and I'm like damn I caught her,

By the heart, but I'm just trying to be her friend,
Now I wish I had equal feelings or reasons we should end,
The feelings being grown for me, that seem to be done easily,
Like watching something so fragile be born for me,

Don't get me wrong, I want to give you the world because you deserve it,
I want to cater to your fruit, if you're a blackberry then I'll curve it,
Since you're worth it but, I'm not capable of giving you everything you need,
I can count my flaws that makes it hard for us to succeed,

Crazy thing is I want to try, but my failure shouldn't be apart of your story,
At the end of the day, overcoming your obstacles with me won't make up your glory,
I'm not perfect but compared to the ones before me I can be,
But I just work the strengths of my flaws within me,

I sit hoping to do you right but I want to avoid the moment,
Just for now since time is so expensive and no one can loan it,
So now I'm falling just like I did before,
For my own trick so I feel sick and you just want for more,

Then you think I'm selfish although I'm feeling selfless,
With the intent of your heart so I can't help this,
Well help to be honest and you think I'm running game,
Just another player, trying to pimp and I'm just the same,

As the others, but no need to argue against you, I just show how I differ,
Since I know what you been through, I take my hat off to tip you, and show respect much quicker,
Competition doesn't exist for real but you think if you create it, things will change,
Yeah they will but it will only make things strange,

Well awkward, like I said I fell for this before,
So I try to be honest since I know what's in store,
At least I think I know,
Here's a confession I'm really just afraid for love to grow,
Blessed with a kind heart that's fragile I guess that's why my feelings show.

So I can never completely dismiss love, or control it,
So I try to avoid it so I won't have to console it,
Again, I'm having no problems with not wanting to pretend,
But until I'm ready to take the chance, don't take offense if I say I look at you as just a friend...

P.S. (Dear Woman 2)

Best wishes from,
A Poet Named Trez


P.S.

I still sit and think of your pain,
I think of how my generation and the one before has left you in vein,
I watch your guard around your heart go up and down,
I wish to flood your vision with happiness to drown out your frown,

Watching from a distance, afraid to pursue with persistence,
Trying to read you correctly but falling short with resistance,
From your heart and your mind, I wish to seek over time,
All at once but with patience, so you can say that I'm,

In it for the win, with no need to pretend,
The battle you live in becomes my problem so I'm forced to depend,
On myself to guarantee you are reminded of your worth,
From the blood drips and heartaches that leave you hurt,

So that you can continue living, so I show that you are more,
Than anything that makes you feel less worthy and I remind you what's in store,
Happiness, and I'm just hoping you seek it,
I hope it comes into one's eyesight so you can reach and keep it,

Let that moment last for life, yet with the blessings of God,
Hoping he shields you from getting your heart robbed,
From that person who is acting out the wrong that they have been taught,
The one who's mind is damaged and feelings are caught,

Up, and they can only justify their thoughts by acting out,
So I'll stand up to the challenge of protecting you without a doubt,
Because I know that you're just short of perfect, so you have to be worth it,
Holding the power to change the world, with time you can birth it,

Well give birth to, a seed to plant into the Earth that could be positive or negative,
That's your only flaw, not knowing what to the Earth you may give,
And Woman, you wake up with your intentions just to please,
Your first thoughts are kind and seem to be done with ease,

Until some one decides to hurt you, physically or mentally,
But please don't change your ways because of something not meant for thee,
Well you, just a lesson that could have been avoided or simply told,
Don't let one person leave you with regret forcing, you to become cold,

So I say to you keep your warmth and continue fighting,
Don't let them get the best of you, stay exiting,
Keep your smile shining, it will pay off I assure you,
Chivalry didn't die in generations, it just wasn't taught to the last two!

Closure: In Reply to My Thoughts Simply Written...

I’m sitting here listening to your song of the week and remembering your smile,
I now understand why you felt so free and so I listen for awhile,
Hoping I could get the same feeling,
But since we’re not as in tune, its not so appealing,

Nonetheless its a good song, but it reminds me of where I went wrong,
Where I forgot us and thought about me and how I’ve waited too long,
To tell you that you’re my true inspiration even when you’re out of sight,
Like New York’s bright lights are for you, I just want to take flight,

Into your mind, gather your memories and line up the times,
You smiled, destroy the sad, blow up the bad, meet your dad, not because it rhymes,
But because I know where your heart rests so I can take it from your sleeve,
Put it back in your chest, tattoo the mirror image with a key and never leave,

Take the time to study your heart and relieve the pain,
Show you that you do deserve more love than anyone could deliver on a freight train,
Do what I have to do to make your blood flow smooth like red wine,
Allow it to relax and unwind, and make sure you return to Cloud Nine,

So I guess that’s where I want to be,
Like in my poem I could look into your eyes and that’s the image I could see,
As the reflection, no snapping to get connection,
I found what I’ve been expecting, and only you make up my selection,

Then I’ll host the first election to the woman that stole my heart,
The two before you just created love but with you is where I made the start,
Of unconditional love, forget flaws, I’m accepting with no exceptions,
I hope you can return the favor because I don’t mark as perfection,

Not too far from it but I’m too afraid to be sure,
But like you did before I’m willing to wait it out for more,
I stay patient in hopes that you would come to me.
Then I feel like I’m wasting time reconnecting what could be,

Something meant for more than a lifetime and the end of a hopeless love affair,
Creating new memories to witness when I stop and stare,
Into your eyes, like you would say, to delve deeper,
But knowing your situation I know you’re a keeper,

But clearly its not for me,
I mean we have a nice connection but its becoming filled with hesitation,
Not because I’m unsure but the risk are too high for relations,
Past a friendship, so I hold the memories and reminisce,
Then I study the mistakes so I don’t have to live like this,

I can just take this feeling and bottle it up and dispose of it,
Well I can save it where it doesn’t hurt, write and compose with it,
Meaning the longer I keep it inside filling it with my imagination,
I move further away from closure, leaving my mind drifting like no gravitation,

I stay stuck in a year that has passed by,
While we don’t even speak, see each other, or share the high,
Of the feeling we once proclaimed and kept a smile on our faces,
So I’m left alone to wonder in and out of many places,

Trying to prevent my blindness, since I have found out where my mind is,
Lecture my heart onto letting go before I become timeless,
Open my soul to a new gateway, travel with my words,
Take a chance with a new noun and slow down with my verbs,

I’m not saying I’m moving on now but
I feel like this is just the thing that I need,
To let go and make closure so that I can and will succeed.
So to the moments we shared I can read and reminisce,
But I have to close the chapter, the best of luck to you I do hope and wish!

A Vacation From Reality

At one point in time her kiss took me on the trips,
That would take me on vacations so I would schedule time to meet her lips,
With mine, hoping to escape from reality,
Creating moments of pleasure but caged in a tragedy,

See I wasn't mature enough to see that we shared dreams,
Well she made room for mine but I feared of what may have seemed.
Hopeless, since I was insecure and I didn't think that I was over,
What I had before, but I made time to console her,

Against me, but I thought it was towards another,
I gave ideas and ways for her to hide her love from a lover,
Who had her heart in mind but at the time,
He had prepared to be on his grind, well let's say that I'm,

Trying to tell this story in third person so I won't have to cry,
Since I haven't felt this much pain in years and there's no need to lie,
Tears haven't been down my face from pain since '06's 22nd day of December,
Which I will never forget and always remember,

But back to the one who could create my vacation,
Back to the one who could make me fly with no hesitation,
Back to the one that made hope for all the risks I thought of taking,
And back to the one who created my history in the making,

That same one that I either want to get over and not think of,
Or get back in my life, who showed me the true meaning of love,
Steer me in the direction of a happy ending,
Become the man that I'm supposed to be with no thoughts of pretending,

Take a look into her eyes and read her thoughts,
If she comes around I will teach over what she's been taught,
So that the key to the her heart will be mine to retrieve,
And she no longer has to wear it on her sleeve,

Tattoo a new memory aside from all the ones before me,
This time I will make room for us to grow so her smile doesn't have to look for me,
Because I will live in her heart, listen to her mind, and breathe with her soul.
Kiss her lips hold her close and let my heart be under her control,

Chase away everything that stands in our way,
But to make sure this is meant for me I will pray,
Take an extra push towards this dream to come true,
But if we have to remain friends for you to be in my life then that's what I'll do!

Bullied By Life

Psychologically and physically,

Two ways of fear that were pushed on me,

Looking to retreat from real life but I’m to corrupted mentally,

To the world I’m a young time bomb waiting to explode,

Open with a select few, but to others I seem closed,

In, like there’s no way for me to escape,

To worried about whose real and whose fake,

Trapped in a time where all I want to do is abrogate,

Everything in my sight except my dreams and my fate,

Meaning I can see my future or at least I’m making a description,

In my mind so I stay sane to keep away from that prescription,

That forces me to abdicate any of my good manners,

But I display it like vexiology and I show them like a banner,

Then I’m reminded that I will be refused because of my skin,

Damn life bullied me again into thinking racism was a kin,

Well a friend, but it was in some way,

Since it was cool with hate, hanged with fate and made a visit everyday,

Forced me to show no mercy at times, and to think with a selfish emotion,

Forget my love for many moments and to stray away from devotion,

Lose faith in things I was hoping would one day be something I could choose,

Life gave away some of those I loved to death like an old pair of shoes,

So in exchange Life kept me down, leaving my regular face as a frown,

Too afraid to look up so I tell my smile to look around,

Well mostly at the floor since I really wasn’t sure,

If I grew feelings for another, would my reminisces grow more,

Since Life would often beat me up, and had me thinking I wasn’t good enough,

Life made me insecure with all my actions, so each breathe became tough,

Everyone’s minds are full of lust and many other sins,

Which grows fear into bringing children into the world, guess Life got me again,

Since the children of the future are taught the stories of someone else’s four fathers,

And to some of them the role of a dad won’t be played so no one bothers,

To step into that child’s life and teach them foundation or understanding,

Just hold fault to their lack of guidance, and label them and begin commanding,

That they change their ways from that of what’s displayed,

Which forces them to frown upon change, and takes longer for them to be saved,

So I pose to the future a sacrifice, of my time, energy, and life,

Give up the hopeless dreams of finding a wife,

To become educated and instill upon them what wasn’t free,

Meaning I had to pay debt to a life to live that’s not for me,

Pay homage to those before me for giving me a small taste of something good,

So in return I step back into the hood, not just for a Wedding like in The Wood,

But to help my brothers and sister find value in themselves.

Regain the confidence that they hid away above their shelves,

Push back on society, and take more time just to pray,

Hold truth to everything I do especially what I say,

Since life has me bullied, I give it this message and before I press send,

I guess I will enjoy the climax of my story until my book reaches the end.

A Cold Reminisce

I sit back reading your old messages you sent to me,

In my mind I rewrite my replies in hopes that you could see,

Everytihing I wish I could share with you,

Letting go of the memories is something I can't bare to do,

I shower in my thoughts, drown in my sorrow,

I'm revived with hope, but drifting until tomorrow,

So today I freeze and shiver, still sad to witness,

You're gone without ending words so I live A Cold Reminisce,

Photographic memory but my brain dispays moving art,

So my words surround us and narrates our start,

Until our end, sometimes I see things of what could have been,

Then I step back into reality where I'm far from the win,

But then I get back to dreaming and I impregnate a thought,

Into my own mind, giving birth to something that couldn't be bought,

Raise it until it's fully developed, then share it with everyone,

Each time I write a poem I celebrate a war that's won,

In my head because it sybolizes a completed thought,

So I can reminisce and move on from feelings before they are caught,

Again, making me trapped in this hopeless love affair,

That I seem to close myself into creating moments of despair,

Or I begin rewriting lines that I've used to display my feelings,

My love begins to hurt so its no longer appealiing,

Then I'm left with just myself, four walls, a frown and a pen,

Social networks to display my thoughts so I'm left with a temporary win,

And I don't even reread it after I press publish or create post,

Because my heart remembers the words while my mind plays the host,

To the memories that keep me feeling like this,

Leaving me to just be honest, revealing that I have something to miss,

Something to treasure and praise with glory,

To also reinact and display a story,

Something to help me mature and to grow,

To also prepare me for the cold days of tomorrow,

Still I keep trying to forget the way I feel,

Hoping to make a difference now that's beyond real,

Since my past can't be changed and my future stays untold,

The gifts of my present have my back until I'm old,

Meaning I continue writing since that's my gift,

From God, and my pressent back is to uplift,

So with my words I display it all so I can picture this,

Happiness with you but within the walls of A Cold Reminisce.

I Still Remember Your Dreams

New York I believe it was, the location of your dreams,

Filled with your ambitions and where your art can flow greater than streams,

Big city full of bright lights and someone by your side,

I offered but I needed to prepare for the ride,

Well I had "Greater Intentions" that you knew of but you stayed and were aware,

You slept in my arms while I ran in your dreams, your thoughts I tend to prepare,

Or at least I was a part of some of them,

My problems that occurred but I also shared space with him,

So in turn we stayed friends because we both had someone else on the brain,

And at separate times we could move on and maintain,

But then in some way we both shut each other out,

Not purposely but it held for awhile to do without,

The notion of asking if we were over our ex's and ready,

To move on past our friendship, to grow something steady,

But I hesitated in writing this because I was afraid,

I pushed you away too far but I wish you would have stayed,

So I've confessed but back to the topic at hand,

I remember you felt "Empty" and fulfillment you wouldn't demand,

But you wanted it, just like someone to hold you,

Only lonely nights, and someone to vent and console to,

You wanted things to change within your family, especially your mother,

You wanted a stronger bond, oh and how's your brother,

He should be in high school now, I'm sure he's getting tall,

How's your aunt I hope you did't forget to call,

Sorry I left your dreams and stepped into reality,

Well I wish your dreams would come true that's what I'd rather see,

Still you continue to dream something so bright,

Although you don't see it but I don't take it light,

I'm just afraid to mess up the flow of your dreams,

Little did I know instead I brought together the extremes,

Of the negatives that could have been prevented,

But now I lay thinking of the dreams someone else invented,

I guess in the event of trying to push away the inescapable,

I hurt both of us something I didn't know was capable,

Of, maybe this can be like an epiphany, and we will meet and maintain,

So that this dream I remember can come true and a best friend I'll regain.

The One

Her beauty will be like an inspiration,

Creating many thoughts and an anticipation,

I'm falling for her but she's so far away,

I'm calling for her but in her mind I have no place to stay,

I'm still trying to make an entrance into her heart,

But I have to cross her mind just to start,

She takes over my thoughts, leaving me in shock,

I race for her love hoping on my side lies a clock,

Or two, hopefully eternities' blessing,

If fate will have it she'd find me impressing,

Worth her time, worth introducing me to her world,

Since I'm captivated by her looks and not just the way she twirled,

In her dresses or anything she wears,

Head over heels, frantically walking, or standing on the stairs,

Like a fairy tale, since I know that's what she dreams of,

I'm willing to make sacrifices to experience true love,

Although I did once before, but I found out too late,

Sometime in January but I'd rather not give the date,

For it was after we were over, when I thought we grew closer,

When I became single, and became a true composer,

Of words in a rhyme scheme or this thing we call poetry,

So I reveal it all too bad we split like the group Floetry,

Now I have embarked on a new journey,

Sue me if I'm wrong I'll find an attorney,

I can no longer polish this memory hoping she remembers me,

In every thing I write I take time hoping to rekindle thee,

Hopeless love affair, so confused I stop and stare,

Because I keep putting my mind through moments of despair,

So now that the moments over I let my words move on for me,

Since my mind its trapped like an inception I hold on to her glory,

Now as a sign of hope, I'm convinced I can cope,

Since its happened before new love is a vision for me to scope,

Then the one who I seek interest in feels the same way I do,

Same stories come out and the same fears too,

But then I'm pulled back into the inception,

As I come out, the one I seek questions her selection,

Of me, and if I can be for her and not for my past,

So I know not to force it since that makes a greater task,

With no intentions to lead her on I tell her the truth,

I explain to her my situation upon my youth,

Even though I'm still in it, so she isn't offended,

Understands my situation and knows that my feelings aren't blended,

Realizes that its impossible for me to let go since I genuinely care,

Appreciates the sacrifice for her love, so she just stops and stares,

For she wants to be the one, who's the driver or shotgun,

If we happened to be together for that long ride towards the sun,

Into heaven, where our souls will align forever,

Creating our miracle of love, our accomplished endeavor,

Temptations won't exist, I just remember her kiss,

Her touch, her hug, every moment leads to reminisce,

For it will be that true moment when my soul and her's attract,

When I've found the One, I'll sacrifice it all and that's a fact.

If We Happened To Be Together For That Long Ride

Destination is Heaven, our souls partnered together,

Nothing stands a chance and God leads us through any weather,

We stand as one, but opposites like the moon and the sun,

Still we are synchronously engulfed by our pain and our fun,

Pain breeds pleasure, leaving pleasure to do things we can't measure,

So every moment along the ride we treasure,

I am into you and you are into me, we kiss casually

Our hearts beat at the same time and our minds think simultaneously,

Of thoughts of each other and the things that keep us whole,

The things no one else knows but the things that glue together our souls,

All my likes become apart of things you remember,

Vice versa, so each others hearts we sign up to be a member,

No pretenders, so we buckle up to ensure we ride with precaution,

Meaning, our past are understood, so the present doesn't fear often,

And our future is something out of sight since it shines so bright,

Reflecting the image of two suns, one for the day and one for the night,

So with all this reflection, we need no other selection,

Consequently our lovers before us aren't even an exception,

Because we've pushed together our flaws and aligned it with a strength,

Or two, that no one compares to our length,

Or width, we ride almost inseparable, with a nice perception,

Of life and repeatedly God receives thanks for creating this inception,

But being realistic, if our destination isn't reached together,

Then I'll rewrite our history with ink and feather,

Back to the basics, I will display our love again and again,

Hopefully you will do the same if I were to meet fate's end,

Before you, but that's just keeping it real,

Optimism gets you far but you get further moving forward than standing still,

We start the ignition and let the keys dangle,

I look over to see your smile shine from every angle,

We hear the roaring of the engine, so we think we should begin,

Since we've mapped out where our hearts will end,

Wow, this is crazy because I never expected this,

A nice turn of events after a smile and a kiss,

So glad that I chose you as the one to be by my side,

I thank you now, if we happened to be together for that long ride.