Suicide Note

It's time to say good and bye together,
I remember my urge to get her,
Success I mean, along with a wife,
But things change and so did my life,

I fell so hard for something that made me delve deeper,
I made it to the surface too late and couldn't keep her,
I couldn't even reach her, she created a teacher,
Now I'm practicing my thoughts but I'm no preacher,

I loss the battle but I won the war,
I explored another heart and enjoyed the tour,
Now I have the ability to speak to someone's soul,
But my feelings I have problems trying to control,

See I was falling for her but I wouldn't let it show,
I told her I loved her but I didn't let her know,
How she changed me and almost made me,
The man I am today after too many years of slavery,

Psychologically and physically,
Now I suffer from the love of success and wait for her to get to me,
Trying not to let the stress show and play it cool,
But pride is the reason I'm not in school,

So I have to pull the trigger, spray blood over an adolescent picture,
Give to the world this last and final scripture,
Create a better me with the remains,
Learn from my heartaches and strains,

Prove that suicide isn't selfish if you're thinking selfless,
Remind the world of sacrifice since the world is a great mess,
Prepare for no one to attend a funeral that wasn't told,
Take my last few moments to get warm before I get cold,

Then I will bow down and pray,
Listen to God's message for the day.
So I give to you the suicide note to the old me,
Now I'm one step closer to letting my soul free.