I feel so shook up when it comes to saying words with meanings who,
Abbreviate my feelings and thoughts pertaining you,
Like a beautiful chaos, my mind is circadian to,
Gasconade my heart into staying true,
If love was a pool I'd drown in it like when I was 13,
Then revive myself and take another dive in it til I'm on a swim team,
Master its challenges until I balance it,
Just for your love, I'd gamble and chance with it,
I'd make time for it to unwind then recoil,
Until your love is a chatelaine for my love, and it spoils,
Me, to abdicate, my chauvinistic ways,
Or be punished by macerate until my last days,
Thank God for this auspicious woman, and asperity she won't see,
I'll embrace her like a banner, and her hearts the topic of vexillology,
Explore her love like geology, study her mind like psychology,
Become friends with her ways and pleasures like she's sociology,
Then I told her if she's looking for the qualities of most guys then you can turn around now,
I make decisions for the heart, so your smile won't look down,
I think outside of myself, so my actions can speak louder,
Than any gold or money, and last more than an hour,
Weekend lover, more like 24/7,
I'm the mirror image of love like Nevaeh is to heaven,
But I give the same meaning just with a different name,
No need to buy your love, I'm all real no need for the games,
Eternities blessings are giving me a lesson,
In love and maturity, but it's keeping me guessing,
Since love is blind, and it goes in all directions,
Who's gonna deliver to me this love I seek and where's the selections?
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
The Fear of Falling in Love
I was looking for it and now it found me,
The complication of love surrounds me,
Keeping me as its slave there’s chains around me,
No longer the king of love so you can’t even crown me,
Trick with her beauty I was trapped in helpless ways,
Looking at the future of love and miscounting the days,
I was racing for the end when I didn’t even begin,
Searching desperately to lose when I was hoping to win,
I tried to write my own destiny I thought I knew what was best for me,
But I come to realize that life is just a test for me,
Maybe not just me, maybe it’s for you and I,
Through my struggles with my pride, now I can’t even cry,
Love wasn’t supposed to be in my vocabulary, but it’s necessary,
Hoping it will come soon, I’ll hold on like it’s legendary,
Waiting patiently to see if you was right for me,
I open up my eyes when I’m dreaming so maybe I can see.
But I'm feeling forgotten about, yet again,
Consumed in a battle that’s a war that I can’t win,
I don’t know why I waste my time trying to be her friend,
Common sense tells me feelings shouldn’t be mixed in
So I guess everyone must deserve a chance,
But I can’t invite myself to a Sadie Hawkins dance,
I’m tired of trying to incorporate you in my future plans,
When I’m not even one of the options of becoming your man,
I can try to persuade you but that will waste time,
Just like the many lines I used just to write this rhyme,
I thought that you were worth it with the way you made me shine,
So I tried to do something bigger than sacrifice a line,
But I guess all my notions were hopeless,
I can say I love but I’m sure that you know this,
I’m sure that you can read between the lines, of how I feel inside
Got me battling myself and my pride
They say time waits for no man, so there’s no more time or me to plan,
I’m past liking you real hard, girl I’m trying to be your man,
I don’t know how much time is left, so girl Imma let you know,
Since the first day I met I was scared to let it show,
But I would pour my feelings into a glass and hope that u would drink it,
With no hesitation my love is strong no need to over think it,
So with my honesty, to you from me, I’m done with complications,
And I’m ready for your love and I’ll thank you for your patients,
I’ll take it there like our love on the stairs, and feed you with time,
Massage your tense body and relax your mind,
Any of your issues I’ll take on as if they were mine,
Because I’m against anything that makes your smile not shine,
Bring your fantasies to reality so you can clearly see,
How my love transfers from my heart to you from me,
But in my preparations of getting you a ring,
I seem to find myself wondering if this is a forever thing,
So now I’m stuck feeling hopeless and love sick,
And wondering will it really have to end like this,
Being afraid to fall in love because I’m scared to let it show,
Or if we have to end, enduring the pain from letting you go,
Maybe this is just a love/hate story meant for me,
On my verge to maturity, only time will help me see,
That my quest for love isn’t a mission from my brain,
It’s a releasing, of what my heart is repeatedly saying,
That love is for me and I guess I shouldn’t trip,
Slow down my emotions but don’t forget,
Tme is of the essence, so no need to pretend,
So I hope that I'm ready when it begins...
The complication of love surrounds me,
Keeping me as its slave there’s chains around me,
No longer the king of love so you can’t even crown me,
Trick with her beauty I was trapped in helpless ways,
Looking at the future of love and miscounting the days,
I was racing for the end when I didn’t even begin,
Searching desperately to lose when I was hoping to win,
I tried to write my own destiny I thought I knew what was best for me,
But I come to realize that life is just a test for me,
Maybe not just me, maybe it’s for you and I,
Through my struggles with my pride, now I can’t even cry,
Love wasn’t supposed to be in my vocabulary, but it’s necessary,
Hoping it will come soon, I’ll hold on like it’s legendary,
Waiting patiently to see if you was right for me,
I open up my eyes when I’m dreaming so maybe I can see.
But I'm feeling forgotten about, yet again,
Consumed in a battle that’s a war that I can’t win,
I don’t know why I waste my time trying to be her friend,
Common sense tells me feelings shouldn’t be mixed in
So I guess everyone must deserve a chance,
But I can’t invite myself to a Sadie Hawkins dance,
I’m tired of trying to incorporate you in my future plans,
When I’m not even one of the options of becoming your man,
I can try to persuade you but that will waste time,
Just like the many lines I used just to write this rhyme,
I thought that you were worth it with the way you made me shine,
So I tried to do something bigger than sacrifice a line,
But I guess all my notions were hopeless,
I can say I love but I’m sure that you know this,
I’m sure that you can read between the lines, of how I feel inside
Got me battling myself and my pride
They say time waits for no man, so there’s no more time or me to plan,
I’m past liking you real hard, girl I’m trying to be your man,
I don’t know how much time is left, so girl Imma let you know,
Since the first day I met I was scared to let it show,
But I would pour my feelings into a glass and hope that u would drink it,
With no hesitation my love is strong no need to over think it,
So with my honesty, to you from me, I’m done with complications,
And I’m ready for your love and I’ll thank you for your patients,
I’ll take it there like our love on the stairs, and feed you with time,
Massage your tense body and relax your mind,
Any of your issues I’ll take on as if they were mine,
Because I’m against anything that makes your smile not shine,
Bring your fantasies to reality so you can clearly see,
How my love transfers from my heart to you from me,
But in my preparations of getting you a ring,
I seem to find myself wondering if this is a forever thing,
So now I’m stuck feeling hopeless and love sick,
And wondering will it really have to end like this,
Being afraid to fall in love because I’m scared to let it show,
Or if we have to end, enduring the pain from letting you go,
Maybe this is just a love/hate story meant for me,
On my verge to maturity, only time will help me see,
That my quest for love isn’t a mission from my brain,
It’s a releasing, of what my heart is repeatedly saying,
That love is for me and I guess I shouldn’t trip,
Slow down my emotions but don’t forget,
Tme is of the essence, so no need to pretend,
So I hope that I'm ready when it begins...
The Poet In Disguise
I'm the poet in disiguise,
Running from pain, ignoring the lies,
Using my words as a way to lay in the skies,
And sentencing myself life without tears so I have dry cries,
Almost four years since water has ran down my face,
Well at least from my eyes because sweat takes the place,
Sleepless nights, enraged days, too much time I done waste,
With memories locking me in time, but I still tend to trace,
Every moment with her, from the good to the bad,
To the role of being her grandson to taking the roles of my dad,
Every moment we've had,
I've cherished it... and wished we shared our last,
No longer myself, I use an escape goat just for stealth,
Basketball was my ticket until problems with health,
Then it was again until I took the journey to wealth,
Spent all my money and was left with myself,
Ashamed so I ran away from myself again,
So many good memories I just tried to pretend,
But reality is too real so thats where dreaming begins,
And more time out of my home and more time with friends,
Comfortable with the new setting, everyone seems inviting,
They have easy issues so advice I began providing,
At the end of the night sleep gets them but my eyes and lids are not colliding,
Now I'm back to myself, and to my heart beat, I'm writing,
The words on the page flow without definition,
Their arrangement is chilled but high with ambition,
So read them out loud and only myself is there to listen,
So I leave my dreams in the past and move myself to the kitchen,
Finished what I wrote, read aloud my order of quotes,
Logged onto facebook to write a new note,
A few friends are online and see my new post,
And leave comments without the laughs and the jokes,
I have a new way to run but sit still,
Less time and effort is put in, with no hospital bill,
No more ER rooms for me, at least going with my will,
So now friends are telling me beats I should kill,
Instrumentals make the aria to my words,
My life take the place of nouns and verbs,
Pronouns and adjectives are even sometimes heard,
But never do I say suicidal thoughts because that's absurd,
No worries never had any of those, just confusions on the roles,
To play, in the fronting of life and how it goes,
On without you knowing how I feel you just react to my clothes,
Or whats on my outside but who i am, no one ask, or even knows.
Running from pain, ignoring the lies,
Using my words as a way to lay in the skies,
And sentencing myself life without tears so I have dry cries,
Almost four years since water has ran down my face,
Well at least from my eyes because sweat takes the place,
Sleepless nights, enraged days, too much time I done waste,
With memories locking me in time, but I still tend to trace,
Every moment with her, from the good to the bad,
To the role of being her grandson to taking the roles of my dad,
Every moment we've had,
I've cherished it... and wished we shared our last,
No longer myself, I use an escape goat just for stealth,
Basketball was my ticket until problems with health,
Then it was again until I took the journey to wealth,
Spent all my money and was left with myself,
Ashamed so I ran away from myself again,
So many good memories I just tried to pretend,
But reality is too real so thats where dreaming begins,
And more time out of my home and more time with friends,
Comfortable with the new setting, everyone seems inviting,
They have easy issues so advice I began providing,
At the end of the night sleep gets them but my eyes and lids are not colliding,
Now I'm back to myself, and to my heart beat, I'm writing,
The words on the page flow without definition,
Their arrangement is chilled but high with ambition,
So read them out loud and only myself is there to listen,
So I leave my dreams in the past and move myself to the kitchen,
Finished what I wrote, read aloud my order of quotes,
Logged onto facebook to write a new note,
A few friends are online and see my new post,
And leave comments without the laughs and the jokes,
I have a new way to run but sit still,
Less time and effort is put in, with no hospital bill,
No more ER rooms for me, at least going with my will,
So now friends are telling me beats I should kill,
Instrumentals make the aria to my words,
My life take the place of nouns and verbs,
Pronouns and adjectives are even sometimes heard,
But never do I say suicidal thoughts because that's absurd,
No worries never had any of those, just confusions on the roles,
To play, in the fronting of life and how it goes,
On without you knowing how I feel you just react to my clothes,
Or whats on my outside but who i am, no one ask, or even knows.
Monday, June 21, 2010
From Africa to Me
Mentally exploring the world but physically I rest on this continent,
Shocked and appalled but I still stand content.
I see her smile from the distance of 4,000 miles
But I'm too shy to travel so I remember the colors of her style
Feelin like a child not able to contain
My inner thoughts that seem to have traps on my brain
I feel the ore of her beauty
So natural so I truly
Am caught up in her essence,
She got me searching for every second
Of time with this African beauty, and experience natures lessons
She becomes more than I desire,
Spreading vast like a fire,
Looking for a job in her love and I hope she wants to hire
To disgusted with my culture but she knows I am just a product,
Of my environment and that is how I come up,
Or came up but in her eyes I show shame of,
African men although my ways are american,
I still have choice to decide who I am
So her beauty changes my mind,
Not her breast or behind
Her intelligence has lift me to change the future of mine
Be all I can be
But not like the army,
Stand strong and don't let my past scare me,
Become the change in which we wish to see,
Or I want to see, that we can be,
Physically, pschologically and spiritually free,
And stand more in content,
Trace my roots and decent,
Become the holder of my mind and intelligence!
Free my brothers and sisters who are trapped in this life with me,
So I take on this positive path because I guess it is my destiny.
Shocked and appalled but I still stand content.
I see her smile from the distance of 4,000 miles
But I'm too shy to travel so I remember the colors of her style
Feelin like a child not able to contain
My inner thoughts that seem to have traps on my brain
I feel the ore of her beauty
So natural so I truly
Am caught up in her essence,
She got me searching for every second
Of time with this African beauty, and experience natures lessons
She becomes more than I desire,
Spreading vast like a fire,
Looking for a job in her love and I hope she wants to hire
To disgusted with my culture but she knows I am just a product,
Of my environment and that is how I come up,
Or came up but in her eyes I show shame of,
African men although my ways are american,
I still have choice to decide who I am
So her beauty changes my mind,
Not her breast or behind
Her intelligence has lift me to change the future of mine
Be all I can be
But not like the army,
Stand strong and don't let my past scare me,
Become the change in which we wish to see,
Or I want to see, that we can be,
Physically, pschologically and spiritually free,
And stand more in content,
Trace my roots and decent,
Become the holder of my mind and intelligence!
Free my brothers and sisters who are trapped in this life with me,
So I take on this positive path because I guess it is my destiny.
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