Inquires of An Incomplete Soul

I often wonder where me and her might be,
Then I remember letting her go wasn't done so easily,
We were given the gift to align two souls,
With the risk to drive towards two goals,
Selfish endeavors of a young and unwise mind,
Gave us the push to uncoil and unwind,
No time for the blame game when I was guilty,
Forced to hold shame and dirt in my soul leaving me filthy,
I wish to wash myself in the truth of one's past,
Taking the knowledge of our mistakes to create something positive to last,
Then I think to myself why did you care?
What made you ponder at my thoughts, what made you stare?
How did I get to the position to hold a standard to compare?
Subconsciously I wonder if I'm still there?
Do I still hold a place in your thoughts or do I show up in your dreams?
Why do I have to drown in my own sorrow or is that just how it seems?
Why wasn't I ready to explore your world, the escape of my reality?
Why did I need to define the creation of your formality?
Still trying to let you go in hopes that you may return,
Not sure if it really works but I'm eager to learn,
If it was an experiment with love in a lustful environment?
Or does finding the one for you remove the need for love's retirement?

Behind The Melody

I tried to cry yesterday,
Hoping to relieve myself of the memories that refuse to stray,
The moments when I could witness,
Thoughts that make me reminisce but you wouldn't get this,
So misunderstood,
The scenes illustrated behind the melody were always good,
Forced to move on and wishing I could,
Just let go and start something new,
But I'm lost in your spell so I'm forced to subdue,
I defined my once ideal woman in a lustful environment,
Since no one would hire it,
My heart resides on my sleeve before love's retirement,
Incapable of selling out since I'm trying to survive,
The business, but to the meeting I have yet to arrive,
So I'm waiting for the alignment of our hearts,
Hoping that our prior pains are relieved before our new chapter starts,
Maybe our prides will let us show what we once hid,
Engrave in stone what we once did,
Give us the strength to stay focused on the view of one another when one glared,
Allowing our minds to journey together keeping our thoughts simultaneously prepared,
So nothing will interrupt our passion,
Yet we hold strong that's all I'm asking,
May we use each other for grasping,
Love deep definition as hate starts contrasting,
The words we use to put together our melodic song,
So only behind the melody they will see what went wrong...

The Truth Of My Empty Glass

Ingredients to take me on a high, Drowning the pain after I'd fail to try, To release my thoughts from within, Trying to follow my heart but I keep sipping on Gin, I feel the addiction and affliction, Close to overdosing with no prescription, My mind looks for ease but I'm just running from time, Well reality, since I'm paying for the crime, Made a drink with no lime, Vodka has led me to deception, Of the truth of being guilty for conception, With the women in my life, I can't see who is better than the rest, Life's business lesson on how to invest, Tequila tasting just to test, she's cooking to get to my heart, While another was there with Rum at the start, So this one does what she needs to make her mark, If only I could see what this other does in the dark, Then there's the one with that deep, deep, deep scar, Oh how I wish I could find out who you are, Since she hides who she is or who she wants to be, The memories keep her caged but her stories sets her free, A love like war, I want to suit up for the battle, Take a walk through the landmines that make her world rattle, But I'm distracted by this angelic soul, The one I don't think I deserve but will make me feel whole, Or so I believe, wants to make my heart fill relieved, Yet my pride won't let me journey on to be deceived, Takes sips of the Whiskey, I'm not sure if its a front when one says that they miss me, So I give thanks of the admiration, as if it were a dissertation, Although I lack physical emotion so its seen as if I lack appreciation, Oh how I've learned from the past, With the temptations, friendships and things that won't last, Hopefully the next time opportunity decides to walk pass, There's some understanding to the truth of my empty glass,

Tomorrow Without Her

Why does she stay? I often wonder, What made her fall for me? I begin to ponder, Purifying her essence to follow my direction, While fantasizing off of a mental erection, She's just having fun I guess, Allowing her feelings to flow freely, relieving her stress, Especially if she lays on my chest, I'm assuming the sound of my heart beat must speak her name, And the warmth of my body must fill her frame, So she becomes lost in the moment, Searching for ways that she can own it, So momentarily my thoughts of freedom she condones it, Just wanting my company she makes her displays, Until I began caressing her mind with my words slightly changing her ways, Not caught up on my waves when they choose to appear, Or even my small sense of style when I'm choosing my gear, So she's liking me for me, for some reason I doubt her, Hopefully that can change before I'm living in a tomorrow without her!

Crimes of Passion

Ms. Lady, let me murder your insecurities,
Insure there is nothing more for me,
Make love to you in front of the world,
And endure the hazing of what's in store for me,

May I caress your body and enjoy your high,
Steal your heart, uplift your lows until they all fly,
Rob you for your misfortunes, polish the shine on your pearls,
Demolish your sad memories, become an arsonist to the things that make you cry,

Roll up your unhappiness and smoke it,
Find the climax of your smile and provoke it,
Hijack your emotions and make your smile be the cost of the ransom,
Hopefully I can give you happiness and never revoke it,

Let me go insane from thinking of you lately,
Since you torture my thoughts, but you're the only one to save me,
Won't you toss your love bombs in my direction, become my terrorist,
Make sure of our love and do away with the maybe,

Can I break into your heart shape vault and steal the love you would ration?
Then change my single style like you're the police of fashion,
Ms. Lady, all I'm asking is that you take an interest,
In me and my crimes of passion...

The Lips of A Moment In the Past

I kissed the lips of a moment in the past, Reminiscing stories created a memory made to last, The weather was 30 degrees while it felt like it autumn’s eve, Her beauty glowed, but I had to leave, I left her smiling andI knew how she felt, She was overwhelmed with happiness that allowed her heart to melt, A fairy tale ending became reality for two broken souls, Dreams became visions and no longer goals, I kissed the lips of a moment in the past, Changing an old endeavor to a moment made to last...

When I See You

When I see you, I see a delicate flower, Blossomed in May, nurtured from April showers, I see beauty in a pure form, A ray of sunshine, the calm to any storm, Something that would be a figment of my imagination or hard to explain, In which would engulf my attention and make me want to obtain, Whatever makes you smile, whatever stays on your mind, Whatever makes you want to open your heart and create a new bind, If your love is lost I would sign up to search for, What’s missing, restore it and search to give you more, Of what you deserve, I ask your interest so I can work to invest, Time and patience, so you won’t receive less, Than what can be offered at any given moment, So when I see you smile I remember your happiness that I seek for so that you can forever own it!